Silly me

I love you and even so
I hold you away;
Just to see you at a distance
I cant touch you
I cant hear you
But i know just how you feel
I know just what your thinking'
I know all your thoughts
are just as much mine
And you feel a part of me
-but right now no one dares beg
the other should stay here
We've gone so far together.
And that seems to seperate
us from eachother.
Have we begun the process
of sending ourselves off in different directions?
Shouldn't I be ok with that?
Or maybe the question is
-How do I know that I'm not?
Silly of me to think I know it all right now.
Of course I do; In time I will.
I don't know.
But I think I should.
Of course I already know now.
I just dont want to talk about it right now.

sugar games

All this little sugar games
are feelings-- my feelings,
there real.
Really clinging and reeling
to tell you what I am feeling
Forelorn and so unlucky
for the moment I am
Feeling lost and a little forgotten
I begged you off and now
I am begging please
And I know that I might come off
like I am needing
And I am
I do
and I need a friend I need you
so where are you?
I’ve pleaded and I am
I can still
please please please for you
Don’t you understand
I am reaching for you
And you can hear me
I wish you could feel me
See me now that I am real
Know that I am real
and I am here
Waiting for shining armor
Peirce through this hurt
and reach me deeper
Push under in search for
To plead and prompt and pray for
The longer I wait the longer I ache for
Hear my words do not set me asunder
This good woman needs a knight in shining armour

i am only lonely

oooohhhhhh
oh!
oohhh
oooohhooohhhh
I want somebody, somebody for my own....
mIne.
I.
Own.
i OWE.
mY Body.
I am Somebody.
On my oWn.

Greif and God

What are all of these highlighted
points in my life dotted with?
It looks like grief. how is this!
Since it has been GodI gave all my prayers to?
And what about all of my relationships
that I have looked after?
Finally all of the heartbreak
that I caused and wanted to repair.
I have tried to forfeit all of my pride and pity.
So why do I feel this pain?
A loss and disbelief that I could try so hard,
and fail. so it feels.
God are you there?
Its me. Persephone.
Didn't I do my job so far?
Why cant I see the ending the way I pictured it?
Please don't tell me that I waited to long.
I try so hard all day.
And I have patience. I know its a virtue
I want to ask please believe in me.
I deserve my blessings.
Give them back to me.
Fulfill me.
Take me at face value.
But please don't be fooled.
Least of all I am to be fooled by me.
Would you let me --
how can I know I am answered?
I feel like a little girl
and the currents too strong where I stand.
But I need to be here right?
And I am strong I could make it if I tried?
Please wont you help me?
Because I know that then if you help me,
I would thrive.