Tuesday, September 26

This I vow to my future husband, lover...

I want to be the one you trust if I am to be the one you love
and you have to love me back, and love me for who I am
I don't want to cling to you and I don't want to be used by you
I want to act with respect in our relationship with and for each other
Never think twice about sincerity knowing that we act with integrity
always gonna trust you out at night, cause your thinking of me inside
I want to be the one you can always count on, I will be your go to girl
Because I will always take care of you. And if I get moody once in a while
you'll sit me down and just hold me, make me better until I smile
we will laugh and sing together we will be friends who hold hands and whisper
when we kiss it will always be hot. We'll make out like we were in junior high in hot hot hotter
I'll cook dinner and you pour wine. We put the kids to bed and dance for a while
and in your arms you hold me tight and call me your beautiful baby
I whisper the promise that I will love you till the end of time
so when it comes time to say "I do and forever" this I vow:
I will vow to be faithful I will be loyal and trustworthy and kind
Our communication will always be open and honest
we will listen with compassion and talk with intent and reason
we will be lovers and honor each other with integrity and devotion
I will believe in you and you will believe in me and we will cherish unto eternity

Saturday, September 23

Love duty and a trophy

I love you and think your terrifying
I thought it cozy in the beginning, how you would be
Kept me unto you- always in control
and now I find it so stifling.
To be trapped in our box
what once was so nice now feels like a coffin without lust
what is it that you love?
To make me responsible for all of the bad?
neglect me the naughty and take credit for the nice?
Give me something more then your cold shoulder and a complaint
I deserve more. I wont take this.
I love you But you keep changing
getting so mean when you will
and apologizing a little less every time
I want someone to grow with.
And it makes me so sad that we just grow apart or so it seems.
and it seems a lot these days that you don't like me
do you love me? Or just love me out of duty?
like a boy who wanted a trophy and wont give it back.
I want to be you lover
I want to find our lives mingled, intertwined
I want you to take my hand and my heart
and make me your lovely wife
I don't want to live separate, even only side by side
I want to share in eachother, encourage and embrace eachother
not compete and erase eachother.
Sometimes lately I feel 'less' in your eyes
I have so much to offer.
I know what I am worth but tell me, what am I worth to you?
Is it enough?
You cant define me - its not a trick to you.
you have me so confused.
baby, I believe you deserve the best, so tell me,
am I good enough for you.?
but don't answer so quick cause, Are you what I need?
Are you ready to love? to be loved?
or is that why your always working so hard?
To hide from the good things
the best things people want for you; to give to you?
oh my lost love, it doesn't cost anything to love
to be loved,
can you understand that love is priceless, not free.