Love duty and a trophy

I love you and think your terrifying
I thought it cozy in the beginning, how you would be
Kept me unto you- always in control
and now I find it so stifling.
To be trapped in our box
what once was so nice now feels like a coffin without lust
what is it that you love?
To make me responsible for all of the bad?
neglect me the naughty and take credit for the nice?
Give me something more then your cold shoulder and a complaint
I deserve more. I wont take this.
I love you But you keep changing
getting so mean when you will
and apologizing a little less every time
I want someone to grow with.
And it makes me so sad that we just grow apart or so it seems.
and it seems a lot these days that you don't like me
do you love me? Or just love me out of duty?
like a boy who wanted a trophy and wont give it back.
I want to be you lover
I want to find our lives mingled, intertwined
I want you to take my hand and my heart
and make me your lovely wife
I don't want to live separate, even only side by side
I want to share in eachother, encourage and embrace eachother
not compete and erase eachother.
Sometimes lately I feel 'less' in your eyes
I have so much to offer.
I know what I am worth but tell me, what am I worth to you?
Is it enough?
You cant define me - its not a trick to you.
you have me so confused.
baby, I believe you deserve the best, so tell me,
am I good enough for you.?
but don't answer so quick cause, Are you what I need?
Are you ready to love? to be loved?
or is that why your always working so hard?
To hide from the good things
the best things people want for you; to give to you?
oh my lost love, it doesn't cost anything to love
to be loved,
can you understand that love is priceless, not free.