Mouse and Lion

IT would be nice to think of something better here
where I came from, I should be so happy here
and it must be me making this all so sad
because you cant be the one responsible for all of my mad
I test myself in every way and here you come
testing me again.
I need to be something more than "just feeling"
where does the thinking come in if I am always just reacting?
when do I get to be a better person if I am always questioning who I am?
silly girl just needs to calm down
I am so uptight I can't take a breath in
and I need to let this all go. let it out
become my own person
lately I am owned by what I cannot change
by my own anger and your perspective.
so is it just the natural order of things?
can I forgive and forget? Myself? These mundane transgressions?
Simply put: am I a mouse or a Lion?